Seven Points of Clarity

It’s amazing – this clarity in my life. First, that I love Trader. He is truly one of who balances me out. Though I can honestly go psycho at times, he is still here, and for that, I am very thankful. Second, that I am glad that I’ve resigned. Work has been a hellhole and […]

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Drained

It’s 8:47 am and I’m still on the subway on my way to work. Before I have resigned, I would’ve clocked in around an hour’s work by this time. Obviously I am demotivated, miserable even. The unfairness of doing three people’s work gets to me and the fact that thy have yet to find a […]

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Guilt-tripped

Since I’ve resigned, I naturally found my motivation lost. Why work more and exert yourself if you’re not even getting a piece of that bonus pool? To top it off, I find the work conditions tough to accept. 1 month, 2 weeks more to go – gosh, how long are these weeks?! And because my […]

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Like a Branded Bag

A relationship is like a branded bag. When you see a woman toting a catchy bag, you cannot help but stare at what is in her arms. “I want one of those,” you jealously mutter to yourself. You windowshop until you find the One. I won’t dive into the sacrificed needed to obtain the bag […]

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Blessed

Trader was here this weekend. We had a really nice steak dinner at Ruth’s Chris, then met up with his friends yesterday and today. We’ve had our disagreements, and yet I feel blessed. No matter how hard life can be — be it me resigning from my current firm, a new change to a life […]

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Loyalty – what loyalty?

I believe loyalty to be important. It’s what cements an employee to his boss. It’s what cements a brother to his sister, a lover to his life. When loyalty ends, you become nothingness. It’s as if I could’ve replaced you with somebody, anybody else and it would’ve still remained the same. This week, I learned […]

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I feel empty.

I woke up today at 8:30 am, and got to work at a freaking late 9:30 am (considering the morning meeting starts at 7:30 am). I didn’t get too irritated or worked up after one of the salesdesk heads make a crazy lazy decision. My spiny colleague was bearable. I took a longer time at […]

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I’ve resigned… kinda.

So I’ve talked to my line manager, the Head of Asian Sales. I told him about my MBA and that the reason I find such opportunity terrific was because it provides me with the growth I need. My boss thanks me for my openness and honesty, and wishes me the best of luck. “In the […]

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Counter-dependent?

I think I may be counter-dependent according to this article. We quote: The Weinholds lay out some distinctive counter-dependent traits in their book, such as having trouble getting close to people and difficulty sustaining intimacy in romantic relationships. Other characteristics include: Having limited ability to feel emotions in regards to romantic relationships (such as justified […]

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Sinful Purchases

I admit it! Am not as much of a spendthrift as Trader, but seriously, I couldn’t really help myself. After many many hours in the store, I finally made up my mind and indulged myself with these: It wasn’t an impulse decision. I’ve spied on these red babies from the Prada Hong Kong store a […]

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