Sorry for the delay with my entries. It’s just that I’ve been too busy during the past week.

Believe it or not, I’ve been partying like crazy that even I feel tired and old — and I like partying every week! It’s all because of a certain new guy friend’s fault. This week, we’ve had dinner and talked till 2AM. He invited me to a birthday party on Wednesday (I didn’t go, I was just too tired), and we met up on Thursday again, as well as Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Actually, we even had brunch today (Sunday)!

Oh, and yes, we’re just friends. *roll eyes*

I don’t know. We hit it off very well, but we’re just friends. Weird huh?

Anyway, been partying a lot.

Partied till like 4AM last Friday. We went to one of the hippest club in Taipei. The place is called Plush, and it’s pretty cool. It was bikini night, so am pretty sure all the guys were having a ball. If you wear a bikini, you get in free. I joked to my guy friends that they should be wearing Speedos. Anyway, it was cool. Loads of alcohol and I got pretty buzzed. Danced the whole night. But nothing special happened.

Funny, if you’re in a room full of hot women, it gets really old, fast.

Everyone starts looking the same. You see a lot of sexy women gyrating to the music, and all you think about is, “They’re just showing off.”

Believe me, every time I see a hot woman in a bikini, the immediate thought is, “no brains.” Unfair, but that’s the truth. They may look sexy, but it’s really the brains and personality that makes a woman.

On Saturday, I went to Room 18 — another trendy bar. We had a table which costs around NT$10,000 (Php 15,000) minimum. Now, that’s a lot of money to spend on booze and a night of dancing. Fortunately, as a woman, we’re almost never really stuck with the bill. Someone usually pays. Should’ve been fun. The music was rocking and I was having fun, but after a night of debauchery last Friday, I was just plain tired and left quite early.

If you’d call 1:30AM early, that is.

Now’s a Sunday, and am just taking it easy. Had a nice bagel brunch with a friend, and it was cool just relaxing and talking. Am a bit dead, brain-wise. It’s been such a busy weekend that all I want to do is — nothing.

Haha, it’s so funny. I’ve never really planned to party this weekend, but turned out, I did. Sometimes, nothing’s planned and you just go with the flow. And life is more fun that way. Am almost now off to a Japanese friend’s birthday party. A spontaneous event, again. Good thing I keep a stash of gifts for cases like these.

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I’m being indecisive again. Right now, I’m seeing a guy as a friend. We’re just hanging out, and having fun. I feel so comfortable when I’m with him, but I also know nothing will come out from this.

The thing is, if you start hanging out with a person 24/7, it’s quite inevitable that you’d develop some feelings for him/her. Isn’t that right, guys?

It’s inevitable that you’d develop some forms of attachment to this person sometime or the other. Actually, it surprises me that he has yet to show any form of special interest. Usually, it doesn’t take a long while for a guy to be attracted, albeit in a purely physical attraction.

But right now, it’s like we’re brother and sister. Weird, huh?

He’s looking for a specific type of woman, and frankly, I possess all the qualities except for one. Haha, isn’t that funny? Because of that one qualification, I’m out of the running. It actually doesn’t bother me, but it does bother him. He told me that I’m a great person. He likes being with me… BUT…

Aaah, there it is again. The word we hate the most: BUT.

I like you, but…

You’re nice, but…

I can see myself being with you for the rest of my life, but…

So that’s that.

That’s why, I’m thinking of distancing himself from him. We’ve been hanging out so much, that I feel that I am starting to be interested in him. He’s really a cool guy, and we mesh really well, but I’ve already been in a situation where I’ve had to chase after a guy to catch his attention. Believe me, this is not a good situation to be in. I don’t want to be in this same situation again.

Sorry, but if a guy cannot realize my value, then, that’s fine. I’m still very young. I’d like someone to really realize my value.

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Mike-Vibe emailed me again. He wants to keep in contact with me. I’m taking this easy, one step at a time. Frankly, I don’t know. We don’t really have a lot in common. He’s very… American. And yes, I know I’m being picky here, but I’ve always believed that one should be very compatible culturally for a relationship to work.

But then again, nothing has even started yet. I shouldn’t think too much, and just go with the flow. So, I’d take things one step at a time, and see how things go.

Funny, huh?

The guys I like, are not really that interested in me. They’re too dense to realize that I am interested. And the guys I’m not too hot with, are making an effort to keep in touch with.

Life’s funny that way.

If we women show our interest, you’ll find men scampering away. Showing interest seems to indicate desperation. However, if you don’t really care what happens or not and take it easy, that’s when guy’s start pursuing you! Aaaargh, guys seem to like the challenge. Act too easy and they won’t value you.

That’s why, I’ll really make an effort to take it easy. Even if it kills me to do it!