I am a first time mom.
Being a first time mom, I can see how easy it is to trap ourselves in being our children’s everything.
Even as a newborn, our kids are treated as kings and queens in our households.
We anxiously cater to our child’s every need.
I remember carrying my daughter and breastfeeding her while I’m at work because she simply refused to be bottle fed. My mom had to buy different brands of bottles to no avail, since my daughter stubbornly insisted that it was either my breast or nothing.
My Friend’s Story: Why She Felt Inadequate as a Mother
“Why can’t anyone sympathize with me?” my friend wailed. “Can’t they see my frustration in trying to do everything for my child?”
At that time, my friend said she had post-partum depression, stemming from the fact that my friend felt that she was an inadequate mother. The core reason was, she couldn’t produce any milk after she gave birth. This was a disappointment for her since she hoped that her child would be breastfed after hearing from many fellow mothers that breast was best.
Unfortunately, the child was not cooperative and refused to eat. So, she felt bad that despite her best intentions, as a mother, she couldn’t even feed her own child.
A lot of her problems stems from the fact that she was putting a lot of pressure on herself.
All children are different.
Everyone develops and acts differently, and most of the time, many are uncooperative to what we believe they should act, feel or do.
Our fault as a mother lies in the fact that we put too much pressure on ourselves to act a certain way for the good of our child.
The child should eat pureed vegetables once she hits 6 months old!
Well, what if she doesn’t want to eat veggies?
My child should be breastfed!
Well, what if you don’t have any milk? Your child is getting thinner and she needs her sustenance.
They should be walking once they hit 1 years old!
What if they still can’t walk by that time? Would you rush her to a development pedia just to see what’s wrong with her?
Why is my child biting other kids? What’s wrong with me?
Well what if they still can’t control their feelings and this is how they show their frustration when other kids take their toys?
Why is my child not excelling in school?
Many kids are raised differently. The one kid that excels may be tutored every day. It’s not your kid’s fault if he/she is not outstanding this year. There are other years to consider.
We have to stop being anxious and start going with the flow.
Mommies, aren’t our LOVE enough?
Why do we pin our hopes and dreams on our children, and punish ourselves unnecessarily when our kids do not live up to our expectations?
Why do we blame ourselves first when things don’t go our way?
Why do we get sour and get mad at our husband for things beyond his control? Can we please stop telling them to be a parent as if we are the expert in being parents?
We are our kids’ mothers.
We love our kids.
When we love our kids, we should trust ourselves in doing the correct things for them already. When love is present, how can we go wrong?
However, when we stress about our childrearing skills, we create an environment of anxiousness and hostility. We take this out on the people around us, even though they’re not really the core of the problem. Then we feel guilty when we become bitches as a mom, as if we do not control the matter.
We were at Universal Studios Singapore the other day. I brought along our 3 year old with us, and we totally had a blast.
Sure, there were some rides that she couldn’t ride on. The Mummy had a height requirement so my daughter was forced to spend the hour with her grandmother.
When my brother and I took the ride and lined up for 70 minutes, we had a grand time bonding together, and I didn’t worry about my daughter, whom I knew was in good hands.
I was present with my brother when we were falling in line.
I enjoyed the attraction even though my daughter was not with me.
And when I came out of the ride, I saw that my mom was feeding my daughter some coconut and my three year old was playing, not knowing that she was abandoned for an hour while her mom was riding the roller coaster.
Did I have a blast? YES.
Did I feel guilty? NOT REALLY.
Did my daughter pout because I abandoned her? NO, She was having a blast on her own with her grandmother.
Did anyone care because I was riding while I was leaving my kid with someone else? NOPE.
Was the kid alive when I got back. Yes, definitely.
So I think Mommies can take it a bit easy. Trust that you’re being the best mom there is and let yourself go a little bit.
Sure, kids and motherhood can be very stressful.
It’s a new experience and nobody’s ever given us a handbook on how to raise good behaved kids.
We may feel abandoned and alone when we’re going through the process.
We may feel that nobody understands us and everything we do is merely for the sake of our kids.
But before we give our all to our kids, give ourselves some slack first.
Breathe, relax, and re-energize ourselves.
Especially as mother’s give everything to our families, it’s crucial that we also regulate ourselves that we do not deplete our sense of selves, because we’ve been so busy giving our everything to other people.
We should stop laying our expectations to our poor kids and husbands, and just focus on enjoying the process of motherhood, because it’s always so darn short.
We should stop thinking as other people as the enemy, and see them as our partners in taking care of our children. As I’ve said before, it takes a village to raise a child.
So here you go mommy. Here’s my kid to babysit and enjoy. Take her out, buy her toys, and spoil her to death.
I know that others love her and my child will be safe in their care.
I will not be swapang with my own child and keep her as my own.
Instead, while other people are taking care of her and ensuring that she is okay, I will enjoy my time, manage my business, enjoy my life, and still be a good mother to my child when I come home.
Motherhood is difficult as it is. So please, let us cut ourselves more slack.
As long as the baby don’t die, don’t worry. She’s in good hands so long as other people will take care of her.
We support you and love you.
Now leave the child with us and enjoy the ride. 🙂
Your child will thank you for it once you’re back and recharged.
Have a good week everyone!