I remember going back from the hospital after giving birth to our baby girl.
It was such an overwhelming moment.
You feel awash with a sense of responsibility. That it’s no longer about you anymore. That it’s now about HER.
To be honest, parenthood does not change you as much as it actually reveals what you are more capable of.
For example, I didn’t know that I was capable of loving another person. Sorry but I will be the first to admit that I am innately selfish and for the first time, I am obliged to care for another person.
Case in point, even if she’s only a few months old, I am already worrying and planning for her future. Ever heard of Estate Planning? Even if Husband and I have little estate for the moment, I am already mentally readying our estate for her.
Actually, come to think of it, I don’t think motherhood changed me as much. I love my daughter a lot and I do miss her, and I have a fuzzy feeling whenever I think of her. But yeah, am not super duper maternal.
So yeah, am still the same person except for the fact we now have a baby and her yaya tagging along with us wherever I go since I’m exclusively breastfeeding.
However, I think fatherhood revealed a lot more to me about my husband.
He is a wonderful father, full stop.
I kid you not — from the time Pea was born, husband has taken over diaper duties, bath duties, and in many times the night, play duties.
It’s more than any woman/wife can ask.
I am not embarrassed to admit it: Since Pea was born, I have yet to change a SOILED diaper. I have changed a wet diaper, but never a soiled one. Husband always comes to the rescue.
Husband is super dad.
And aside from being an awesome father, he still remains a great husband.
Yesterday for example, he bought us midnight snack from Jollibee — palabok and sour cream fries, my favorite.
So I think the lesson is: When you get married, find a man who can be a good father.
It makes life a lot easier, because babies truly is a big responsibility which is too heavy to carry if you’re alone.
So for me, I feel blessed and undeserving to have my lovely daughter and my amazing husband… and I feel in awe of the many single mothers who’s winging it and making life great for themselves and their kids.
They are way better than I am.
Sure, I can work and earn money, but hat’s off to them for being able to balance parenthood and making a living without help.
As for me, even though am Mrs. Tough Girl, motherhood revealed to me that I am weak without my husband. That he makes life easier for our family. That without him, I have to do everything, and wow… just wow.
He has been our rock —
So yeah, motherhood has changed me.
Before, I thought I can do anything.
But actually, I am not that tough after all.
And I realized that, only after having our baby.
Have a great weekend!