I’m so glad that we went to Green Island a week ago. It gave me the break I desperately needed. After the pressures of life, my work and my organization, it felt great just to get away from it all! Here’s a rare picture of me asleep:
The blue sky, the shining sun and the fresh, salty air all helped in bringing back my balance and preparing me for the difficult November ahead. If we didn’t go, am sure I’d go crazy right now!
This afternoon, my best friend Mike called me up just to make sure I didn’t jump off the building last night. After a hard evening, I had jokingly said that it would be bettter if I just escape my troubles by committing suicide.
He didn’t think it was funny at all. 😛
“Mike, I used to be a cheeky, happy and very optimistic person that exudes positive vibes wherever she goes!,” I moaned to him when he called. “Now, I’m constantly overwhelmed by organizational pressures and other people’s moodiness and it’s bringing me down! What happened to that happy girl a few months ago?!”
Looking at myself in the mirror right now, I see a woman who’s tired with all the sh*t life has been throwing at her lately. Of course, I’m still optimistic about everything, but GOD! Everyone has its limits too!
“Are you crazy?!” he exclaimed. “You’re just going through a rough time right now. It’s normal to be quite depressed given your circumstances. If you weren’t, you’d be weird.“
It’s true — I’ve been overcome by so much stress lately, it’s destroying my chi. I sometimes even have to force myself to smile just to feel happy… something I don’t usually do. Most days, I’m just exhausted.
But as I was exercising, I remembered a saying — “Wisdom is the knowing the difference of what you can or cannot change, and making the best of what you can.”
As Mark had said, “Life is unfair.” But you don’t let it get you down. Things oftentimes don’t go your way, and it’s okay to be sad about it… so long as you don’t stay defeated for a long period of time.
Just brush yourself up and face the world again.
I’m going to do that right now…
People can b*tch and moan ALL THEY WANT, and guess what? I’ve had enough.
My goal is set — I’d like to implement a kick-ass project later this November, and I will do all I can to make sure it’s successful. Now, if you’re unhappy with how things are doing, well, guess what, we can’t back out now. So grit it, stop complaining ’cause we’ve got work to do.
I’ve been very reactive so far. I have hated conflict with a passion that every time, I try to please other people and make them feel happy. But still, they b*tch and moan. You can’t really please everyone, can you?!
Well, now, enough is enough.
This girl is p*ssed.
I’m not going to make any more excuses. If they’re unhappy with how I’m managing things, well, then come and talk to me directly. Don’t talk behind my back and let’s COMMUNICATE like adults do. And just don’t complain and moan… give me an answer! Tell me the next step on how to make things better.
I’m not let ANYBODY push me around any longer.
I’ve had enough.
Yes, I’ll still be reasonable, but please, I cannot handle your moodiness any longer. I am not your psychiatrist — please, you do not pay me to listen to all your complaining. I promise that I will try to be a friend and give you all the support you need, but hey, we dug this hole… so if we fall, well, let’s find a way to get out of it!
To all my readers, sorry if it doesn’t make much sense now… but to those who know me and my situation, you know who and what I am talking about.
I’ve had enough.
No more Miss Goody-Two Shoes.
She’s putting her foot down.
Hope you all have a great week.