I feel terrible today.
Some days, do you get the feeling that something bad is going to happen… and there’s no way you can stop it?
I need to be specific here, none of you probably know what I’m talking about.
Here goes, I’ve come across this terrific girl recently, whom I believe will cause a ruckus in our organization because she is pretty, talented, wholesome and seems just goddam nice. Even I have no problems succumbing to her charms. 🙂
She’s going back to Canada soon, but has sent me an email today telling me she looks forward to joining our organization’s activities when she gets back.
Unfortunately, the insecure side of me (and I’m not proud of it) just want her to stay away… 🙁
Personally, I think she’s got the right age to attract my Ex, whom I unfortunately still have loads of residual feelings for.
Okay, so this is my bad side.
She IS competition though, and honestly, I just want her to stay away.
Bad Raven… bad BAD Raven!
Sigh, but it’s inevitable, might as well accept it. Hence, I’m toughening up my heart for the time that I do get officially replaced. 🙁
I know it’s wrong, but I can’t help but feel this way. I feel it’s helpless to stop the inevitable.
*cries aloud*
I’m strong… I can do this.
I can survive this… repeat after me, there are many other fishes in the sea… there are many other fishes in the sea.
I would really appreciate any help and comfort any of you can provide right now… 🙁
God, feel like crap.
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On the bright side, I’m happy to say that I’ll be leaving for my annual vacation to Cambodia tomorrow! I’ll be there for five days from December 14 till the 18th and it’s going to be FUN!
Get ready for loads of pictures and happy news when I get back!
Till then!
“She IS competition though, and honestly, I just want her to stay away.”
Uh-huh. What if there are OTHER “pretty, talented, wholesome and just goddam nice” girls wanting to meet (or whatever) your ex? What do you do then? Push them away too? That’s funny. When do you tell yourself to move on?
I tell myself to move on EVERY SINGLE DAY. It’s an ongoing process… and not easy at all. I take one step back for every two steps I take (or is it vice-versa?). 🙁
I’m not saying it’s right… it’s how I feel at that moment. Regardless, I’m trying to move on and leave the past behind. Hopefully, a good break to Cambodia would do the trick!
You’ve got to cut hard and move on. As the saying goes, you can’t have your cake and eat it too!